Thankfully I was kind of prepared for this. Just the way it was headed as well as your response to my last review. the part at the beginning where Justin says "don't fall in love with me" was a bit of a give away. :) My head and heart are ready for what you give us. I have to say though...I was getting so frustrated in this chapter. I mean that in a good way in a sense. You had me emotionally involved. I get Justin's reasonings, but at the same time, he was pissing me off, being hot adn cold with Brian. I felt for Brian. Ifelt his pain, his frustration, anxiety, especially with regards to Eric. 

You know when loves leads to stupidity?? It was a bit of that.

Thankfully Justin opened up. Brian will give all the love and support needed. Looking foroward to the next update.

Cheers,

Elaine

I'm very disappointed. I got sucked into this story and was enjoying it too. It was obvious that something was wrong with Justin, I assumed it was early alzheimers or something. It never crossed my mind that it was something this tragic. When I read that he was dying I thought back as to whether there was an MCD warning and thought I missed it. I do not read MCD hardly at all. It's heartbreaking and I couldn't help sobbing when I was reading this chapter. Even though your intention was that it wouldn't be an MCD early on you were still intentionally deceitful because clearly you are aware that some readers don't like MCD fics. This is something you could have said in the description from the beginning. I'mean not sure if you can revise the warnings but if you can it might be a good idea to do so now. I hope you decide to give proper warnings for your future fics.

There's a reason those warning tags exist. Many of us avoid MCD fics, and it's pretty underhanded to trick people into reading. It means you were well aware that many of us don't like MCD fics and you purposely misled us. I fear you're going to lose readers and make people leery of reading future fics of yours.

You're killing me here! Every chapter is an emotional rollecoaster. thank goodness you also impart some lovely "feel good" parts to it so I can calm down a bit.

Hopefully Michael has learned his lesson. Not sure if it wil last or not, but we'll have to see. either way, hopefully Brian has and will tread carefully from now on with regards to his "best friend".

thank goodness B&J are able to communicate for the most part. At least far better than they did in teh past. Brian really wants this to work out between them. what a difference from the last time. It's actully really beautiful to see here, and how you've portrayed it. 

So omething REALLY serious is goign on with Justin and he's trying desparately to hide it. His sense of panic when Brian confronted him made me feel so badly for him, but he has GOT to tell him sometime. He NEEDS to be there on teh 30th. dr appointment? These memory lapses are becoming more and more obvious. Oh I hope that he's able to overcome it. that he and Brian are able to have a long life together. If not...you haven't put up any warnings, so I remain hopeful. either way, you are such a talent. This is so beautifully written.

Am desparate for every update. lol.

Cheers,

Elaine

What's happening with Justin sometimes he's forgetting little things? I freaken love this story lol actually I'm In love with this fic

I have the pleasure of reading this story twice and reviewing so you know how much I like it.  Brian seems to need to miss Justin when he goes out of town.  He managed to end up at Justin's when he got home instead of going to the loft.  Coming home to find Michael in his loft going through his papers was shocking.  Michael lucky he didn't call the cops.  I wonder just what Mikey was looking for?  I'm glad that Brian is changing the locks and giving Justin a key.  That should tell Justin how much he means to Brian.  Texting Justin while in the same room was sneaky.  Jess was good for going along with it.  Then Brian and Justin went to New York!  We not only get to read about Thanksgiving but Christmas too.  If only it weren't for Justin thinking that Brian and Eric were together, though you couldn't exactly blame him.  Perhaps if he told Brian where he'd been and what he saw, Brian would have been better able to appease him than just saying "I never lie to you."   Brian's liking make up sex a bit too much.  lol.  Poor Brian his feelings were hurt when he found out Justin was going away for Christmas. Finding out their going to be gone 6 days was too much for Brian.   This is where I start to think Justin has memory problems.  Brian actually admitted to Justin that he loved Justin.  Whoohoo.    Then he sends roses and takes Justin to the Bahamas.  Now Cynthia knows he's involved with Justin but she'll never tell.  They get home just in time for Christmas at Deb's and yet another present from Brian.  To everyone else it was a mystery but Justin knew who the singer was singing to and why.  Lindsay had no right to be jealous  of Jess because of the gift Brian gave her.  A three day vacation to Hawaii should have been more than enough for her highness.  I don't think Justin enjoyed his holiday with his mom.  He seemed more than happy to get back to Brian's arms.  Great chapter.

It's good that they are getting closer and closer.  I just wish Brian would talk about what he wants.  I can't help but wonder if there is something going on with Justin that he's not telling.  Eric is finally getting what Ben had to go through with Michael.  Does Mikey get better or does he go off the deep end?

I honetly can't remember if I've reviewed this before...I know I've read it. If so, good. If not I am terribly sorry!! I know I haven't the last 2 chapters anyway.

Going forward, I kinda sorta get Brian's feelings of anger towards Justin, but really, everything he really felt was so internalized, that justin really couldn't help but feel they way he does. There's obviously something MAJOR going on with Justin that is also effecting him. I know Brian feels like a shmuck about his behaviour. He had no idea about Justin and gus. the man seriously needs to sort himsel fout. He's apt to head to teh looney bin at this rate. He's trying to convince himself he has no feelings for Justin....doesn't care who he does or anything, yet....when he thinks justin is getting "sumthin' sumthin'...he treats him like crap. Nope...he's completely immune to his feelings about Justin. *eyeroll*

I think I hae a clue as to what's going on with Justin. Going to be an interesting ride for them both if what I think is going on, really is. I think this one is going to be a bit of a gut wrencher at times. Will have to wait and see.

Am so looking forward toi the next chapter. Thank you for this. It is a wonderful story thus far. Very well done. 

Cheers,

Elaine

Do we get to find out what's going on with Justin? 

The anger is a bit still there but other then that love this chapter

Hey Nadine! First, Awesome chapter! It was definitely filled with angst and DRAMA.

Secondly, although I hate what Brian did and is doing, I understand him. With all his revenge and plotting, you've humanized him to the point where I can certainly relate. "The best revenge is to live well..." is a saying that I suscribe to with an added 'and look WELL while doing it' thrown in for good measure. Justin really hurt him twice in succession and even though I understand Justin's state of mind when he left with Ethan and again in leaving Pittsburgh, it's still a fact of Brian's existence. Perhaps Justin was feeling his own sense of anxiety and heartbreak while separated from Brian, which is something I am definitely interested in finding out. And Brian needs to know what was going through Justin's head too. Hopefully somewhere in all of this both of them will reach some sort of understanding about the hurts and disappointments they inflicted on each other so they can grow from the experience and move on.

Happy Writing and HUGS,

~Nichelle

Welcome to KD, Nadine!! And what a welcome it is! This is already shaping up to be a great story and I'm looking forward to the next update. You have done a wonderful job capturing Brian during that period in time and provided us with a realistic possibe outcome of the Brian-Justin-Ethan triangle. Keep up the great work!

Happy Writing and HUGS,

~Nichelle

great build up to a climactic chapter end. While slightly off canon in ways, it still stuck to teh emotions of it. I really liked how you got deeper into Brian's psyche. His inner reflections. The seemed very true to form to me. Very realistic and touched on all the levels of...well mourning really. He's mourning the loss of Justin and has gone thorugh the diefferent levels of the mourning process.

I'm already hooked, so will eagerly anticipate you bringing more to teh table with this one.

cheers,

Elaine