Date: Nov 06, 2018 10:06 am Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
Not a great reaction from Brian but I really believe he felt blindsided by what Justin said. I'm sure he was all geared up to try and say the right thing to soothe Justin's fears and then WHOA hold up it's me and Gus he's talking about! Pretty powerful stuff for both of them to cope with. Brian just took a page out of his Sunshine's book - if in doubt walk on out :-( Tough road ahead for our boys I'm thinking. This is such a good story and as someone living with a young son who suffers from depression and anxiety, I really can relate to all you have written so far, and appreciate the compassion you are showing.
Author's Response:
Thank you for saying I'm treating these subjects with compassion. I work in the mental health field both as a clinician and as an educator working to reduce stigma around mental illness and seeking treatment so one of my hopes is that this fic serves to increase understanding about these illnesses.
Date: Nov 06, 2018 9:42 am Title: Chapter 5: Walk Away
I really can’t imagine Justin being danger for Brian or Gus. And from the previous chapters it was more that he was afraid of smth happening with them, not doing it. Really hope that in this moment the doctors are wrong. And Brian... he is just destroied Jus((
Author's Response:
It's definitely a complex situation and it will take a while for everything to unfold. I love long fics and I hope for this to be a long story!
Date: Nov 06, 2018 4:23 am Title: Chapter 5: Walk Away
That was predictable, yet, reading it makes it worse. I hope Brian will come back after venting out.
Author's Response:
Ultimately we want Brian and Justin together.. it just might be an angst filled road to get there.
Date: Nov 06, 2018 2:40 am Title: Chapter 5: Walk Away
Now, not only does he have to deal with Justin being treated in the hospital for his depression and PTSD he has to keep the family in the dark and at bay.
He walked out? When the doctor suggested talking to Brian would be helpful he fucking walked out on him! Yeah he earned his asshole nickname right then and there. He damn we'll better go find himself someone for him to talk to if that's his reaction to Justin's honesty.
Enjoy your vacation.
Author's Response:
Brian's actions are definitely hurting Justin right now. It was a painful note to leave it on, even as the author!
Thank you! I'm hoping to post while on vacation, I just don't know what the internet situation will be.
Date: Nov 06, 2018 1:36 am Title: Chapter 5: Walk Away
Okay, it seems like Brian needs to be there too. If they both start therapy things could get better for both of them.
Author's Response:
They are definitely both suffering right now.
Date: Nov 05, 2018 7:51 pm Title: Chapter 4: The Interview
I have to say that this doctor was most thorough and actually listened. I sometimes think Doctors ask questions but don't really hear the answers.
Author's Response:
Yep this doctor did as well as he could!
Date: Nov 05, 2018 5:13 pm Title: Chapter 4: The Interview
Justin is not going to see the end of the tunnel any time soon! Poor guy!
I imagine Brian won't be happy to hear about Justin's violent thoughts, but he might understand that Justin can't do anything more than what he is doing at the hospital. Mel and Lindsay might become drastic and forbid him any contact with Gus.Then, the sh*t is going to hit the fan and everybody will know.
Author's Response:
No, nothing will be resolved anytime soon - lots to write and lots to read!
We're going to see people's reactions to his thoughts, stayed tuned!
Date: Nov 05, 2018 12:15 pm Title: Chapter 4: The Interview
I see a long road ahead.
Was Justin allowing or using Brian, albeit subconsciously, to replace Craig and his functions as a father? Interesting.
I liked that Brian kept their first visit light. Justin catching him being dorky was cute.
Author's Response:
Definitely a long road ahead of them...lots of story to read :)
We'll find out more about these thoughts for sure - stay tuned.
I love writing the sweet parts of Brian and Justin's relationship that no one gets to see.
Date: Nov 05, 2018 2:23 am Title: Chapter 3: 5150
I take it that all this is a prelude to what happened, what Brian learned? I hope things work out so hurry with the next chapter.
Author's Response:
More is coming! Thanks for reading!
Date: Nov 05, 2018 2:06 am Title: Chapter 2: Back to Pitts
Woah! It's kinda like when you feel so good you feel like a balloon, but then all the air goes out and you feel empty. Going to the hospital has got to be better than living like this.
Author's Response:
That's a perfect image - the air being let out of a balloon.
Date: Nov 04, 2018 8:46 pm Title: Chapter 3: 5150
I understand Justin feeling embarrassed by being in the psych ward, but to keep IIT from his mother,?
It seems Justin told the doctor more than he told Brian. Brian needs to remember that even feeling lost as to help Justin, getting him to the hospital was the best way to help at the time.
Long road to healing for our guys.
Author's Response:
He will eventually tell Jen - he just needs some time to understand if for himself. Also, he doesn't want to worry her.
The doctor was asking much more specific questions. But yes, Brian just wants what's best for Justin and he did the right thing in going to the hospital.
Date: Nov 04, 2018 7:18 pm Title: Chapter 2: Back to Pitts
Never expected his happiness from chapter one to take such a drastic turn when he returned home. At least this time they weren't taking his funk as something to just not think about.
Great chapter.
Author's Response:
His time in LA is a stark contrast from how he feels when he's back in Pitts, that's for sure!
Date: Nov 04, 2018 9:07 am Title: Chapter 3: 5150
I hope 3 days will be enough, though I don't think it will be. It seems to be too deep to heal this quick. Jennifer will be out of her mind and angry towards Brian when she will find out.
Author's Response:
A 72 hour hold is what folks are usually held on. The criteria for release are just that they are no longer a risk - insurance won't pay for in-patient treatment much beyond that. True recovery takes much longer but treatment is usually outside the hospital.
Date: Nov 04, 2018 1:09 am Title: Chapter 3: 5150
Great update. So sad, but thank goodness Justin is willing to get treatment. Terrific writing.
Author's Response:
Thank you! The process of him getting treatment will be a big part of the plot so stay tuned!
Date: Nov 03, 2018 3:47 pm Title: Chapter 2: Back to Pitts
Wow, what a powerful chapter. Depression is such a nasty thing and you wrote it perfectly.
Author's Response:
Thank you! I'm glad you felt I was able to capture it. Not at all easy to experience or describe.
Date: Nov 03, 2018 12:52 pm Title: Chapter 2: Back to Pitts
Whoa! That's hard to read, but I guess this was the best decision to take.
Author's Response:
I know it was intense - thank you for reading!
Date: Nov 03, 2018 12:25 pm Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
It was a good idea for Brian to actually use his ticket and surprise Justin.
Author's Response:
Glad you think so. I always understood why he didn't but I wish he had.
Date: Nov 02, 2018 8:30 pm Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
Wow, this was great. Love that Brian went to LA. Terrific wriing.
Author's Response:
Thank you! I think Brian getting to see Justin in this environment, doing what he loves, will have a ripple effect for them.
Date: Nov 02, 2018 4:16 pm Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
Nice start! I love your writing style!
Author's Response:
Thank you!
Date: Nov 02, 2018 3:26 pm Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
Love your writing style. You really get the feel of what Brian was feeling.
Author's Response:
Thank you! Brian is my fav so if you feel I was able to capture him, that's a huge compliment!
Date: Nov 02, 2018 2:29 pm Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
I can see things playing out that way. I can also see Brian pushing Justin back to the west coast for school and more opportunities behind the scenes in the movies. Didn't happen, but could have.
Author's Response:
Brian is working on not pushing Justin into doing what he thinks is best for Justin...but it's a hard habit to break!
Date: Nov 02, 2018 2:02 pm Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
Hiya,
I normally don't read WIP's but was intrigued so gave this a try.
And boy, I don't regret it one moment.
This beginning sucked me into the story in one fell swoop.
Looking forward to the rest of it.
Girl, you have another fan dying to read the next chapter.
XOXO
Soirsa
Author's Response:
Wow! Thank you! I'll be updating as soon as possible! I hope you continue to enjoy it.
Date: Nov 02, 2018 10:20 am Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
Very nice concept for a story. You've written the characters so well. I was happy to see the growth of Brian. The fact he visited Hollywood is Huge! And now... Sunshine's coming home. Can't wait to see what you have in store for our boy's.
Congratulations on your writing, and your very first fic.. You're very good. And welcome to KD!
Hugs ~ Cathy
Author's Response:
Thank you! I love these boys and I want to see how they can develop if just a few things were different!
Date: Nov 02, 2018 7:25 am Title: Chapter 1: Rage in LA
Welcome to KD! So happy to hear that you have taken up writing again after 20 years. I can’t wait to read this story and I hope there are a dozen more inside you! Happy writing! TAG
Author's Response:
Thank you! I've been lurking on this site forever and I'm excited to contribute :)